dizz
2011-04-03 23:11:31 UTC
But as time has gone by, things have been getting more complicated. She's dating someone else, and obviously I want to do this, but I dont want my baby being raised around some random ************ like that. Secondly, half the people I've told (that know her and not) are urging me to limit my actions until I know its for sure mine. Thirdly, she moved out of town after we stopped dating, and I'd want this kid to be in my city because I want to have a direct hand in raising the child. Mine or not, i'm not going to risk not having done what I know needs to be done if it is mine. I want to be there for this child as much as I can, but even my mother is one of the skeptics, and i'm going crazy trying to get everything in line in terms of the future, and the skeptic talk does nothing but further make me go crazy.
I'm limited with knowledge about pregnancies, and I've been doing crazy research, but here are the details.
Ultrasound estimate development time of baby: 19 weeks and 4 days (we know it's not an exact pinpoint measurement but just an estimate of give or a take 1 week)
first time we did it: 18 weeks ago
what i know for sure: she was with someone else oct 31
what i don't know for sure:
-if she's telling the truth about not being with anyone else during or since (even though she claims she's been seeing someone else for a month or 2), or if she was withanyone else shortly before me
-if i should try to get with her in a relationship to make it an easier process if I am the father
-what her dad wants to do, i already know he's suggested to go to court to get some kind of legally binding agreement for financial support from me, eventually to be child support after birth also.
I'm a class away from graduating from college, but have been seeking employment after being laid off a while back. The economy is ****, and I apply at hundreds of places but finding one is tough. Financially, I know things will be fine. But figuring out what to do in terms of her and this baby is what is killing me. Furthermore, I guess the skeptics are right as i am not 100% sure its mine, but I've already decided to act as if it is.
I am trying my best to do all I need to do, but on top of everything, she lives out of town and is apparently seeing someone else, and i dont know wtf to do. i just want to know that it's mine and want the baby to be raised here in my city