Please help What do I do?

Question

I literally don't know what to do anymore. I'm married, 3 months pregnant and I'm really scared. I live in a trailer park with my husband. He has no money or job and neither do I. Before anyone judges me my dad bought me this laptop a few years ago (and the laptop is breaking down the screen is getting messed up because my husband's niece spilled some pop in it a couple months back) before I moved out and my mother in law has internet service but she's always complaining saying I got to pay her for using her internet services and she's always yelling at me. I have no family I can go to for help. My mother and father passed away a couple years ago in an accident. My sister has my other 3 kids and I haven't saw them in a few months. My sister made up lies about me and threatened to say I abandoned my kids when I didn't. She kicked me out (and she kicked out her own daughter too my niece) because we told police things about her so she was trying to get revenge on us. My niece lives far away from me now. My husband said he doesn't want to work. He gets $720 a month in disability but his mother is his payee and she takes all his money and he sees none of it and I see none of it either. I have no way to get to my ob doctor appointments. I have medicaid and medicaid pays for my prescriptions but there is a $3 co-pay and i don't even have $3 Everything is far away from where we live. We live in the boondocks. The nearest gas station is 10 blocks away and they don't accept link card and the nearest grocery store is 20 blocks away and I am too ill to walk anywhere. I have asthma, heart arrhythmia, chest pains, anxiety, depression, schizoaffective disorder many other conditions... so I am too tired and weak to walk anywhere. i applied for disability and they deny me. My husband got it right away the first time he applied and he has depression and they gave him disability right away but they denied me 2 times already and I have the same disability he has but they give it to him and not me. I have to cancel my ob/gyn doctor appointment because it's too far to get there. I had a car but it broke down right before Christmas. So I was unable to see my kids for Christmas. When my car was running I went to the salvation army and got my kids some toys and I still have their toys sitting in the room with me everyday. I was unable to get them their toys for Christmas. My sister didn't want to bring my kids to see me on Christmas. Instead she lied to me and said her car's heater broke and I found out later on that was a lie because my niece told me my sister went to drive out by her on Christmas. I also missed my son's birthday. I never missed any of my kids birthday and this is the first time. It is breaking my heart. I can't take all this pain and misery in my life anymore. My husband hits me and he pushed me down last week but it's so hard to get up and leave him because I love him a lot I don't know why I just do plus I can't stand to think of his baby I'm pregnant with growing up without a father. My other kids have to grow up without a father and I don't want this one to as well. Then this morning my husband threatened to kick me in the stomach and make me lose the baby. Then he said he was just messing with me and he told me he was sorry. It's bringing me to tears to type this out. I just got out of a mental hospital recently too. I chose not to take any anti-depressants or anti-psychotics (I'm allergic to anti-psychotics, I get bad side effects from them) medicine because the psychiatrist told me it can cause the baby too have with-drawl when it's born and it can increase my chances of miscarriage. I don't know what to do. My life has no meaning or purpose. I miss my parents and my kids so much. We have no heat in the trailer and I'm cold. We have to use the oven to heat the house. Plus I'm losing weight. I've lost 10 pounds since I've been pregnant because it's so hard for me to get food I can't get transportation anywhere. I feel like I'm living in hell. My sister won't let me talk to my kids. I am so lonely and hopeless. i can't find a job. I filled out job applications for 20 different jobs around where we live before my car broke down and no one ever called. I don't know why. I am smart. I had straight A's in elementary school and 3.0 GPA on my CNA state exam years ago. I feel like dying. I don't even know why I am typing all this. There's nobody out there that can help me anyways. My baby is going to be born and probably have to get taken away from me because it's not going to have any clothes to come home from the hospital in. I don't want this baby living in a trailer with no heat. I have to sleep in my sweater and coat. I feel like committing suicide but I'm too scared of the pain.

Answer 1

Wait a minute. You say you live out in the boondocks and then you say the nearest gas station is ten blocks away and the nearest grocery store is twenty blocks away. That does not make sense. There are no blocks in the boondocks. Blocks are only in town. I'm sorry, but I wonder is your story is true.

Answer 2

Ok im really sorry for you situation but come on! You are a grown up woman and you should take the wheels of you life! Your sister has you other 3 kids??? If you cant take care of any kids (financially) do not have kids, i know you and your husband have no jobs and the only thing you can think about doing is having sex but commooon you are not bunnies who copulate all the time and have babies like they were poop. Take care of you life, realize what your doing.

If you have no job, no house or anything like that, do not have a child and dont even think about having sex, think about the job you need to get, the house you need to buy, the life you need to rearreange. For gods sake, it upsets me so much that people cant take responsability for their own actions. Your sister shouldnt be having to take care of your kids, you should be doing it. Havent you heard about condoms, pills, pull out etc etc etc? theres even an operation that makes you unfertile! And i think its actually free!

This is a 16 year old teelling you to take control. Your husband should get a job, if he does not..leave him. You should sorround yourself with people who gives you something (spiritually, mentally, material etc) not taking away things from you (energy, time, money etc etc ) and that man is taking things away from you.

You should get a job aswell (the two of you should have like 3 jobs each) you have to be creative and i dont know, start a business (with the money from your jobs), sell some stuff from your "house" for extra money. Use that money to buy a house, pay the education for your kids, built a future for your family, show some respect and appreciation to your sister. Get over yourself.

Stop writing on yahoo answers and do something. Make a financial plan. Put things in order. Remake your life. You are a perfectly capable strong woman who can do whatever you propouse to yourself. Make a change. If you are capable of ruin your life the way you have done, you are capable of put things back in order.

Im sorry for your parents, but change things to make them proud. Be responsable for the 3 kids, and 4 soon, that you created...not to live with their godmother, but to live with their mother in a perfectly nice house (without it being fancy or anything) having perfectly nice education, and being able to make a future successful life for themselves, and they should be able to say in some not so far future "thanks mom, this is for you".

Wanna hear those words? DO SOMETHING!!!!

Grow up and stop complaining

Answer 3

Call an adoption agency social worker and organize a couple to adopt your baby. They will pay for your medical expenses while your pregnant. There are many families out there who can't have babies but would give a baby an amazing life.

I feel so sad for you!!!! Good luck!!